Reflecting

A group of photons leave the sun. They travel 95M miles in a few minutes, with just a few hitting space dust on the way.

They finally make it to the Earths atmosphere. Quite a few hit dust in the atmosphere and bounce around there. But not the Main Man (Photon). That one fights through.

This group make it very close to the earth, and then they hit a piece of glass. Quite a few are absorbed or reflected, but a good number get through. These find a piece of kitchen furniture, and many are taken in there, but a fair few are reflected off, rather slower, but still very excited. The original gang are now down to a sprinking.

These carry on their journey, and moments later they find some more glass. This time, ony a few get through, many are reflected. These carry on momentarily and then enter my eye. Some more degredation as they work through the structures of the eye and then a photon or two make it to be converted into electrical energy in my retina.

Then, in the space of a few inches, some of the most complex and amazing processing happens. This contributes to me seeing a reflection in the window.

This happens all the time of course. The amazing things that happen we treat as quotidian - and they are. But they are also amazing.

Doom and gloom?

 2020 will, it seems, be remembered for being the year of Covid. As we are seeing the start of a second wave, we have no idea how bad this will be. I was reminded this morning that this year has been split into seasons by Covid too - the "Normal but seeing what happens" winter; the "Lockdown" spring; the "Freedom from lockdown" summer and the "Second wave, semi-lockdown" Autumn.

And, of course, one of the issues is the handing of this by western governments - UK and US specifically. For me, the handling makes me angry - this may be less than perfectly quakerly, but so many have died and been ill - the "Long Covid" impacts that will be with us for years are just starting to be seen, but appear to be devastating.

Next year - in the UK, we add on the shambles of Brexit, which will cause more suffering, more deaths, more chaos. So even if we make it through 2020, there are new challenges in 2021 to get through. It feels like a computer game - each level just builds the pressures, and if you can make it through: WELL DONE.

And then, as if tht wasn't enough, there is the Boss Level of climate change. This will not have gone away, but by the end of 2021, we will be 2 years nearer disaster than as we started 2020 with serious warnings and predictions.

The handling of this by the current government in the UK and US does not encourage me - there may be a change in the US, but there seems little chance in the UK, and if anyone wants to know how much the current administration cares about the natural world, the HS2 work is already destroying world-beating natural areas that should be preserved for the future. It does not bode well.

Is ther any hope? I don't know. I know each year we survive is an achievement. But each year that passes when we do not address the real, core, institutional problems the less likely we will survive longer. But maybe.

I am reading Tolkeins "Beren and Luthien" at the moment. The essence of so many of his stories is that while the evil seems powerful, it can be destroyed and brought down. Usually by the powerless, the small and weak. To the small and weak among us, we are important. And we will win.

I lost a job and then I found a job....

So, as some people know, I have now found another role within the same company as before. If you have known me for a while, you may know that this has happened before - a few times. I have lost a job, but found another position really quickly. In this case, because it is within the same company, it has been really quick.

I think it is true that God has blessed me in my working situations, many times.

Let me clarify, I have very marketable skills, and I know how to find work. I also landed in an area (computer software systems) that ha been the most significantly growing in my working time. That is part of the way that God has blessed me.

Then I see others. Often equally talented (in different areas maybe) people struggle to find new roles. Are they not blessed by God? Or "less blessed".

Simple answer is: No.

Longer answer: I have no idea. But also, it is easy to assume that I am blessed because I am worthy or deserving of it. Which is, of course, totally untrue. If I am blessed, it is to help and support others. It is to spread that blessing to others. It is not because I "deserve" it.

The thing is, if I am blessed, my only response should be to bless others with my blessings. The ONLY response should be to spread that. To tell people how blessed I am, how special I am because I am blessed - that is a betrayal of everything I have been given.

To be Gods blessing to others - that is my aim.

Quakers are anarchists

This may seem like a very peculiar statement to anyone who associates anarchism with violence, and Quakers with peace, but this misunderstands the nature of anarchism.

People who promote and support violence at anything and for any reason are not "Anarchists". There is another name for these people, and it is "Idiots". I know that the media usually refer to these people as anarchists, but that is a label, not a philosophical statement.

So why do I say that Quakers are anarchists? Well, anarchism is about a rejection of authority - more specifically, it is a rejection of imposed authority, it is a rejection of the idea that another party can impose authority over us.

Let me explain: the American Footballers who took the knee - as a peaceful protest against the racism and hte racist killings - this was anachism, once the authorities told them not to. It was anarchism, because it was a rejection of the rights of the football authorities to rule on their peaceful protest.

For clarification, it is perfectly reasonable to accept the football authorities rights to define how the game is played, what the rules are and to have to abide by them, while still rejecting their rights to ban their protest.

The early Quakers did something that sounds minor today - they refused to doff their hats at the gentry. Big deal, right? Well, in a society where observing the social niceties was fundamental - where an acknowledgement of hte structure was at the core of maintaining the cohesion of the society - this was anachist. This was radically challenging to the structure of society. The reaction it provoked showed how problematic it was.

So yes, Quakers were anarchist, in their peaceful, and so intensely undermining, way. Today, in all sortf of often quiet, peaceful ways, Quakers are anarchist. That is - I guess - part of what attracts me.

Seeing ourselves.

So I was told recently that on a zoom meeting, your own video feed is reversed, because (apparently) people find it easier to see themselves as they see themselves in the mirror, rather than as others see themselves.

I was reminded of this in Meeting this morning, as there is a clock in the background, which is backwards as I see it.

Others, of course, see my video the correct way around.

The way we see ourselves is not the way that others see the us. That is very true - not just in online meetings. Our own perception of ourselves is not the same as others see us, maybe not completely reversed, but different - because seeing ourselves as others see us is disturbing. We prefer to see ourselves differently.

I think there is an interesting conclusion here: sometimes we need to believe what others see in us, what others say about us. Sometimes, other people see us better than we see ourselves.

So you sit in a silent Zoom meeting?

I have been asked a couple of times how we do Quaker Meeting for worship online. "Do you have a zoom meeting and mute everyone?" - well, yes.

Is it peculiar? Yes. But then, a normal Quaker meeting is odd, if you think about it. We go to a place, and sit in silence. And yet, as many testify, this is a powerful time, a time of deep spirituality, of engagement with the divine.

So yes, we sit in silence, looking at a computer screen. It is a strange thing to do, but then engagement with the divine is a strange thing to experience. At a time when it is difficult to separate work and home, being at home and spending time quietly contemplating divinity is powerful. And - in my personal experience - is also helpful. It helps to have a time of calm and peace. It helps to bring this into the home/work.

Thin places

There was an interesting comment about thin places in the meeting today. Thin Places are from Celtic spirituality, and are places where people have experienced the presence of the divine. There are some well known places - like Glastonbury - that are traditionally known as thin places.

But it struck me in the meeting (and I ministered along these lines) that what makes a place "thin" is not the divine presence. What I have been experienced is that what makes a place thin is us - our presence. It is about our involvement, and about our ability to see the divine in wherever you are.

In lockdown, the strange blurring of home/work/church/whatever can make it really hard to find the divine in any of these places (and as they are all one, that is difficult). But if it is us who makes hte difference, then we can find the Thin Place wherever we are. It might be - who knows - that we can find the divine in our work places when we return to them.

That could be a revelation.